Drank a cup o' reality at 5:26 p.m. on Sunday, Feb. 09, 2003
Yesterday I decided to take a day and run away. I didn’t get very far, but did make it to Macy’s. The one thing that I really miss about California is Macy’s. There was this mall back home that had it all: Gap, Victoria’s, Banana, Macy’s, The Limited, Pottery Barn, etc. I loved it. Shopping is comfort food for me. So there I was wandering at The Mega Mall (AKA: Mall of America) trying to find something to make me feel better. The Clinique girl made a huge commission off of me! I also found a lovely pink bra. I have drawers of “break-up bras” and this will be added to the collection. I bet I even look like the model when I wear it!
I’m paranoid about my small chest. I just make an A cup. My Best Friend tells me that I’m just fine for my size. But, really, I would love to wake up one morning with at least B size boobs. My friend Eric, in college, used to tell me he thought “more than a handful was a waste.” All I want is a handful! In bed I usually crack jokes about my breasts to cover-up how I feel about them.
So, I can’t get The Farmer out of my mind, especially the good things. It would be really easy to just call him an Ass and hate him forever, but that isn’t gonna’ happen, for a lot of reasons. While I was buying that bra I kept thinking of how he liked my breasts. He said that they were “perfect” the first time I took off my shirt. I have never had a guy say that before. In a way I think that it was the best compliment I have ever gotten just because it hit such a nerve. The Last Time we were together he went on about how much he liked my chest, that he loved my nipples, my soft skin, etc. I told him that it was the one thing I was self-conscious about. He told me that I shouldn’t be. He told me some of the most wonderful things. In the end, at least I can choose to believe that he really liked the one part of my body that I don’t. Does that make it better or worse?
After we had been together for a while I even quit wearing padded bras; I’ve never done that before.
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Miss Spunky is:
a 25 year old English teacher currently on an extended adventure in Minnesota, searching for a good man with a big... truck!
I love:
My students, excessive amounts of coffee, Baja Fresh and a good hockey game.
I dislike:
Ignorance, mosquitoes, and people who write in IM and/or grammar so poor that it is clear that they are lazy. IM is LAZY, LAZY do you hear me???