Drank a cup o' reality at 9:51 a.m. on Friday, Jun. 18, 2004
For the last few days, maybe even the last week, I have been feeling extraordinarily foggy. I can’t really describe it any other way. There is this directionless-ness that I am experiencing. Nothing to do… and an increasing inability to make decisions. When I do make decisions they are half-baked, mis-intentioned and selfish.
I am completely at a holding place in the housing hunt. Shauna was wise to encourage me to leave it alone for a week. I also know that I’m not going to take a place that is “livable” simply to have a place to focus on going.
Until Monday I am at a holding place with next year’s curriculum. I have a meeting with the other 8th grade English teachers to discuss new curriculum for the new block schedule. I’m nervous about it all: meeting new people, really starting a new life, teaching new stuff and teaching new kids, starting over.
I did talk to Mr. Math yesterday. We discussed my bringing 2 of his students to the resort. In my Pollyanna naiveté I just didn’t process the position it all puts him in as their teacher. Now I feel bad for asking and for even letting him in on it. But, I’m selfish because I was so very glad to hear him on the phone. So, I was able to make one decision last night before going to bed. I love these girls, but it really isn’t right for me to go on a vacation with them. There has been a quite voice in the back of my head saying that… and I’m gonna listen to Mr. Math and the voice. I told the girls that there were too many “bumps” and that is true.
I really need to get out of this non-productive, directionless, foggy funk. Therefore I called and registered for a class to renew my California Credential. (I have to take 5 before 2006). Papa is paying for it all… and this is as good a time as any to get on with it. Plus then Mom can’t hold it over me.
Today I’m gonna’ call Salvation Army to donate a bunch of old clothes!
The family is all in Seattle for My Brother’s piano recital. If I was going to go on vacation that is where I should be going.
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Miss Spunky is:
a 25 year old English teacher currently on an extended adventure in Minnesota, searching for a good man with a big... truck!
I love:
My students, excessive amounts of coffee, Baja Fresh and a good hockey game.
I dislike:
Ignorance, mosquitoes, and people who write in IM and/or grammar so poor that it is clear that they are lazy. IM is LAZY, LAZY do you hear me???