Drank a cup o' reality at 5:10 p.m. on Sunday, Feb. 08, 2004
Things seem clearer in the daylight. Or rather today's impending snow storm.
Friday night Gretchen, Mary and Mr. Math took me out. I don't know why people "drink their troubles away." Drinking only seems to magnify it all. But, it was really helpful to have Gretchen and Mr. Math there supporting me and plotting together how to best help me. I realized that in this they are my touchstones. The rest of my girlfriends here are wonderful and kind, but I really need Gretchen and Mr. Math.
I drove Mr. Math home after being at the bar, we sat and talked for a hour and a half. Really, that was all I needed. I just needed to sit for a little while and listen to him. I was able to say to him, "Thank-you, I just really need you right now."
He had good advice and told me how sad he is about the whole situation. He is really upset. But we agreed that I am best to just hold on a little bit here. I generate enough gossip about myself, this needs to be a time when I don't. The school board will be meeting in the next week and I need to not flip out until after that meeting. Yes, Gretchen is right and I will be working on my resume and gathering up the requisite ducks. Mr. Math gave me good advice from his mom and we discussed telling my mom.
We did not have the "What About Us??" Conversation; that will come. We did talk about boats leaving dock in June, that both of us are leaving. He kept reminding me that I'm gonna be OK.
Really he has been a trooper and borne the brunt of this disaster. He has been the only one to see me cry over it, and I have cried lots. He has had great advice and been a calming place... I need him.
So, the weekend has been tollerable.
I will not be spending all of my sick days, because that is childish; and like Mr. Math said, "Spunky, you aren't there for them, you're there for those kids we're in love with, you're there for 'our girls.'" Wednesday will find me ice fishing all day with the 6-8th graders and he promised tons of fun. I will continue to do more than I should and work my tail off, because that is what I do.
It is what I do for those kids, I love them.
With Gretchen and Mr. Math, we're all gonna' be OK. We'll keep reminding each other
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Miss Spunky is:
a 25 year old English teacher currently on an extended adventure in Minnesota, searching for a good man with a big... truck!
I love:
My students, excessive amounts of coffee, Baja Fresh and a good hockey game.
I dislike:
Ignorance, mosquitoes, and people who write in IM and/or grammar so poor that it is clear that they are lazy. IM is LAZY, LAZY do you hear me???