Drank a cup o' reality at 9:52 p.m. on Thursday, Jun. 10, 2004
I realize that I am an extraordinarily selfish person. And yet, I think that today I may have hit a new low. Ordinarily I am used to people doing what I want and/or my being able to convince them that they want to do what I want to do. This generally works out to be fun for all, because well, hell, I don’t come up with crappy ideas.
Mary and I spent the day on a circuitous apartment-house hunt in the Northern suburbs. I did find a beautiful, albeit spendy place in White Bear Lake. She was a tremendous sport driving a driving and driving and more than once criss-crossing our paths. It must have been so boring for her. And I was sure to say thanks more than once. We did have a good lunch, did some shopping and I bought Mad-Libs to keep the car ride fun.
The car ride home found us absolutely socked into horrible stop and go commute traffic. It was painful, but we were chatting it all up! We were laughing and goofing around mostly about the idea of traveling to visit Mr. Math at his family’s vacation resort Up North. After about 30 minutes we had planned the entire trip: who was going and when we would leave and in the process I absolutely got my heart set on the adventure. I realized how desperately I want to go there, how much I miss him and how much I want to be in that beautiful place with him. I really really want to do that. Actually, I want it so bad that I cannot clearly articulate my desire to see that place and him in it. (remember my feelings about watching him coach hockey?) That is what I know he is like at the resort. Mr. Math is passionate about 2 things: hockey and the resort.
So, Mary and I were having a blast planning the trip. Mary even called Mr. Math! I giggled the entire call. I am sure that as soon as he hung-up, he turned to his folks and told them, “Hey, that was Mary and a group from work are thinking about coming up!!”
Then she called her husband to ask if we could go. He got all pissy and suddenly the entire mood in the car changed, and Asshole Husband wasn’t even there. Basically he said, “No” and to make it worse he implied that Mary wanted to hook up with Mr. Math when the whole damn world knows that I’m the only one who will be hooking up with Mr. Math!! She hung up and stated clearly for one of the first times that she wants to get a divorce.
And now it seems like just because Mary is married to an Asshole we won’t get to go Up North. Things are too complicated for me to just go on my own and I’m simply not going on a vacation with the other teachers… Mary is the crazy glue that holds us broken people together.
So, I’m selfish because my heart is totally set on going to see Mr. Math and as a result I am pissed that we might not get to go. Really I should be concerned about Mary and her marriage and not the dashed potential for me to see Mr. Math… see, I’m selfish!
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Miss Spunky is:
a 25 year old English teacher currently on an extended adventure in Minnesota, searching for a good man with a big... truck!
I love:
My students, excessive amounts of coffee, Baja Fresh and a good hockey game.
I dislike:
Ignorance, mosquitoes, and people who write in IM and/or grammar so poor that it is clear that they are lazy. IM is LAZY, LAZY do you hear me???